I'm so happy to be starting a new job but, (isn't there always a but?) I am having some serious "oh my" moments about Kathryn and daycare. I try to rationalize. I try to think about how much she is going to gain from this new experience. I reflect on David and our wonderful experiences with him in childcare. But, nothing makes it better.
I'm not sleeping. I'm wound up about it, and those of you who know me, know that me and wound-up are not necessarily a good combination, it tends to make me a bit irrational and obsessive.
David started childcare at 6 weeks, full-time, usually much longer then full-time actually, and he thrived. He had a few months off when he was two, right before I started grad school, but then he was right back in until we moved to Oregon when he was four. Then he only went to preschool 3 mornings a week. But, we never had a bad experience, he really benefited from it I firmly believe. There was never any hesitation or guilt or any of those other negative emotions. We loved his teachers and they loved him.
But, my baby! She's three, she needs to be going to preschool. I need to be going back to work. Other then her appointment with Dr. Gupta next week, I really believe that we are putting the neurosurgeon appointments behind us other then some occasional check ups. There is no reason for me to worry. There is no reason why she shouldn't do wonderful. She'll probably have a ball.
But, I'll miss her.
I guess it's just a big change for both of us. I've been a stay at home mom now for the better part of three years and it's coming to a close. I just want to milk out those last few days of hugs and kisses, trips to the park, savoring the peace of nap time, and always being the one there that picks her up when she falls.
It has been such a gift to not miss the first steps, the first words, the joy of her exploring new experiences, even potty training. I've taken a bazillion pictures. I've given her the very best that I can. I guess it's time.
That first morning, dropping her off at "school" while I head off to the office....maybe I should skip the mascara that day, huh?
Fairies in the Field
Kathryn and Olivia playing in the field dressed as fairies. This is one of my very favorite pictures from last summer.
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This was me when I went back when DD1 was 3 and DD2 was 18 months. It was SO hard. I won't lie. I was so happy to be a part of the grown-up world again though and despite my worries they loved school/daycare and did well. They made friends. They actually miss it, but circumstances from last year brought me back home again and voila, we are all here together. LOL
You and she will be fine. You'll see. Your families are very, very normal.
Oh, E! She's gonna rule the school, don't you know? She'll do really well, and I know you'll love being in a grown up atmosphere. You're such an awesome Mommy, and it's totally normal to hesitate. Shoot, I wanted to bawl dropping Logan off at Sunday School this week.
Best of luck to both of you in your new adventure!
Hey Lainy! Congrats on the job.
I just wanted to let you know that I've been thinking of you. Hope all is well with lil Miss K.
Take care, chickie! I have some card making goodies to send you.
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